Monday, November 30, 2009

so he

so he gave in. He called me later on that afternoon when he said he didnt want to speak to me again. I can't understand it anymore.

Yesterday was stereosonic. I wasn't overly excited for this festival for some reason, never the less Ellen came over and we had our 'pre' drinks, which ended up with us not even making it to stereo!
We drank way too much, a lady found us on the train and took us back to hers to help us sober up, only thing is we didnt sober up but ruined her lovely house.

I have never been more dissapointed in myself then I have been today. Not only is that $200 down the drain, but I upset Jimmy too because I called him and his friends all day, not knowing really what i was doing. Now things are back to being awkward between us. I wonder how long he will go now without talking to me...

God, just when I think things can't get worse, they always do.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

the good

the good things always come to an end...don't they? Which makes me wonder, are they even good things to start off with??

Day 1 [of many] of not speaking to the ex...

I don't have much to say today, except that my job finishes up today, but I managed to pull another job from the chocolate shop across from michels. They're going to give me a few shifts over the Christmas break.

Monday, November 23, 2009

chocolate for

chocolate for break fast.

i woke up pretty early this morning when i promised myself i would sleep more, so i did my usual check up on face book. The reason i have started my blogging today is because i started reading through a friend of mine writing and i feel like i understood a lot about how she felt.

one thing, i think this is a good thing for me. The past 4 months have been very bad for me, maybe here i can vent and not worry about someone reading it.

i still love my ex