Sunday, December 13, 2009

when I

when I get angry and bring up a fight, I know its stupid as soon as I have said something. Why does he make me so angry though!? And most of the time he doesn't even get it that he makes me angry.
I am way too over my head in this 'friendship'. He has made it clear how little feelings he has for me, so why can't I seem to move on? What the hell is wrong with me?

I have finished my first 3 days of work at the chocolate shop. Something new, pretty tiring. I am also starting work at the WACA this week which should be exciting. Ill be in the members section for the international test so maybe ill get some close ups of the Australia team.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

am I more

am I more annoying than everyone else in this world ???

oh and I hate him.

Thursday, December 3, 2009


ohmygod, he gave in and called me. I really didnt want to give in, because it means that this is probably going to happen again. But I gave in, surprise surprise. If anybody actually reads this, they must think how stupid me and Jim are- I can't even keep up sometimes.

So he called and apologised and said that he does want to talk to me, etc. I told him i'm sick of this happening, but we'll see what happens. He is leaving to Melbourne today and I wasn't going to see him until after he got back, which made me sad. He asked me to come round yesterday to hang out, and it was so nice.

I hate it sometimes how good I feel around i'll just have to see how things turn out while he is gone.

God I miss him already- how pathetic.

On other news, I'm going to an arabian themed party tonight- woooooooooo !

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

things are

things are still bad with him, actually probably worse now.
He doesn't want to hang out with me or talk to me for a while, which will happen because he is going to melbourne on friday for a while. So today is again the first day (of many) of not talking to him, and neither of us can give in- as much as I just want to talk to him now.

I can't understand why guys can't handle emotional things. When things start to get good again he freaks out and runs.

Back to square one for me again...